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I remain livid with molten rage & gutwrenching grief. Every life is many lives, every loss is a universe of loss. THEY DESERVE TO LIVE! We deserve to suffer for this

The Wound Reaches/Reaching Centuries

The Wound Reaches/Reaching Centuries; triptych (30x30 ea); acrylic on canvas; ©EAU

magical mystery tour

US out of everywhere

I'm a jumble of dark and fiery thoughts and feelings. The monstrous horror of forcibly corralling 1.7 million people into what was supposed to be 'safe' Rafah - just to bomb them. The horrors of Israeli Occupation, of U.S. Imperialism, the bottomless supply of weapons and propaganda - the terror, the torture. To see this coming for so many years, not just since Oct 7, and not be able to stop it ... to feel my ancestors in this ... I'm gutted and deeply desolate.

This may seem unrelated, but I remember how it shattered me, how my mom punched me in the face, slammed me against a wall & coldly stated, "Nobody will ever love you." Over & over. It broke my brain, to be so betrayed. I couldn't understand, and trying to almost killed me. Trauma recovery work taught me I will never understand - we can't comprehend the incomprehensible - beyond the obvious - pure evil just IS. There's no way to understand or solve it & recovery has very little to do with that.

When we face the abyss, and that's what this is, all there is is surrender. This doesn't mean giving up! It means something more nuanced, complex, and ultimately empowering. Learning how to live with trauma means accepting it while knowing you will never understand it. That acceptance is NOT forgiveness - we do not have to forgive our oppressors. No, it means - I see, I see what they do, open eyed, I refuse to be silenced, and I find new ways to live. This is why most people refuse to even look, cuz seeing demands accountability.

We are witnessing incomprehensible trauma, and we must be accountable. We can be shattered, grief-stricken, furious, exhausted, numb, terrified. And we must keep learning, working, disrupting, reaching out to each other, listening to resistance leaders, connecting to community, and find ways to integrate these traumas. Our vision and hope for a liberated Palestine, Sudan, Yemen, First Peoples, earth - it must contain the truth of the horrors. I just mean, there is no way to this but through this. It's stunningly horrific, and we are shattered, and we will not stop. Onward

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#freepalestine #saverafah #endtheoccupation #usoutofeverywhere #morewillberevealed 

we are staying alive

 

I only celebrate the fight against genocide

Scotland/ancestral

Have you ever walked the hills your father's father's father walked? When none of them knew or cared about you, the land did. The land always does. The land remembers 

*Art by Wendy Elisheva*

In Ontario, Sarah Jamas is expelled from the NDP for speaking up against Israel's war crimes. 

The United States vetoes a United Nations resolution which would have called for humanitarian pauses in Gaza. 

Amnesty International proclaims that the movement of Palestinians which Israel demands is not feasible, thousands will die. 

My Congressman responds to my email with "Israel has the right to defend itself against the attackers," when I ask him to speak against the genocide. 

Zionism was invented in the late 19th century. 

Jewish people protest the genocide and say "Not in our name!"

Before Israel started bombing Gaza on October 7th, 450 trucks of humanitarian aid entered Gaza every day. 20 trucks have been allowed in since October 7th. 

Gaza is surrounded by a concrete wall and double wire fencing. 

It's not a war or a "conflict" when you've been punching your opponent in the face every day for over 70 years - you control their water and their electricity and their fuel and their food and their medical supplies and where they can live and what they can say and you keep hitting them and hitting them. You force every citizen in your country to join your army or go to jail. You kill journalists and babies and kittens and uproot olive trees. You say anyone who advocates against this senseless slaughter is antisemitic. You punish Jews for speaking up against your lies. When you want their homes, you take them. You kidnap their family and neighbors without trial and lock them in prison with no release date. You call them animals and the United States gives you billions of dollars to keep on hitting them. Canada sells you $20 million dollars worth military equipment each year and says "I support you."

The transitioning

A garden is an exercise of hope

There's good lettuce under that row cover

And yes, it snowed