LOVER

THEY GIFTED ME

Surprise arrival today from City Lights, my wish list dream! This is community being in circles. I am loved.

Be well

Welcome to my world. One day you have some hope, the next your symptoms roar back in. Covid defies dominant linear paradigms, and asks us to stay in "unknowing". This virus is non-binary. And in the face of it, please watch how you pathologize the 'sick', just because we don't fit into traditional hierarchies of 'wellness'. And resist the urge to slip into weaponizing recovery-

I'm not "beating" Covid, I'm surrendered to it. It's the lived paradox of powerlessness, enduring this tragedy that's rooted in & activating real trauma. I'm a furnace and can manage the flames. A life of trauma taught me everything, beginning with tolerating pain. 

Coronavirus Experience, sick for over 60 days

truth

BY GWENDOLYN BROOKS

And if sun comes

How shall we greet him?

Shall we not dread him,

Shall we not fear him

After so lengthy a

Session with shade?

 

Though we have wept for him,

Though we have prayed

All through the night-years—

What if we wake one shimmering morning to

Hear the fierce hammering

Of his firm knuckles

Hard on the door?

 

Shall we not shudder?—

Shall we not flee

Into the shelter, the dear thick shelter

Of the familiar

Propitious haze?

 

Sweet is it, sweet is it

To sleep in the coolness

Of snug unawareness.

 

The dark hangs heavily

Over the eyes.

 

SISTER/SAVER

Plenum

Allopathic uplink counter-intelligence

Non-conformist obviate 

Cleave abyss

Supernatural psychoanalysis 

Purgative

Nullify erratic venement

Arduous ternary 

Telekenisis enclave 

Immaterial 

Adduce

Rivulet