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Why I Do Anything

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here to grow yo

Thank you, Emergent Strategies community for our immersion. I'm saturated with embodied and witnessed growth, vulnerability, bravery, joy, grief, lessons, 💖 close 💥 intimate 💖 community. As an introvert with C-PTSD and on-the-spectrum sensory overload challenges, you helped me/modeled for me how to stay in my body, discomfort, blunders, goofy, immersed, neck deep - you honored my limitations in a way that radically affected my perception of myself in relation to you. The sustaining bounty of delicious food & coffee, water, tea, potions, chocolate, fruit, sage, rosewater, wisdom. The questions, pain, healing, power. Secrets revealed, relations beginning, revelations, patterns, spin, search, conflict. Be present be present show up show up stay stay stay my ongoing mantra that makes anything possible. And giggles, grins, song song singings. The supreme intelligence of the genius team creating/leading - I trust you/the people, not to not hurt me but to BE TRUE - and the truth is more transformative than my comfort, discomfort is necessary for growth. Expanding my conception of how to move in an ethical way, listening to hold space. Revealing trauma not to perpetuate it but to work through and beyond it, support, collectively heal, transmutation 🎶 Thank you, earth, thank you friends and ancestors who made this possible, I vow to stay present for the ongoing work of small works, to take responsibility for and work toward dismantling my privilege and culture of white supremacy, while holding healing space for my ancestors who were mortally traumatized by it - I witness both/carry both. I'm of liminal space, mixed space, and by honestly showing up, even if that looks puffy and wrinkled, it's powerful to be. I vow to honor you/myself ongoing, to love xox here is a sunflower and her bee in my garden for you xox